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Saturday, May 28, 2016

You are not Crazy

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It has been awhile since I stood before him as he completely changed our collective history. He would tell stories that did not resemble reality at all and then act quite confident in the reality that he was constructing. 

I remember debating back and forth with him as he changed basic facts of each story. No, I would reply, that is not at all what happened. He would insist on the reality change with such audacious calmness that I would start to wonder if something was wrong with my memory. I started to question my own sanity at times. Could I be so wrong?

Then, if I would lose my temper he would act victorious, see what a mess you are? he would say. As if by showing emotion I was inferior and contemptible. Sometimes he nearly convinced me that my memories were faulty and that I was, in fact, just a bit, crazy.

I wasted years and Years and YEARS of my life in the pursuit of three things: convincing him of the reality of our lives, seeking an apology or some acknowledgement of responsibility from him for how he had hurt me, and persuading him to see what an incredible person I was. He never, ever did speak the truth. All of those years I wasted on a goal that would never come to fruition. 


I remember, again and again my therapists telling me that Dad's opinion of me was none of my business, telling me that I could and should move forward without Dad's approval or affection. Sadly I couldn't hear that at the time. I didn't get those important parts of the puzzle for years. I didn't understand how those words could remotely comfort me or move me forward in those days.


And still I pass these words on to you.

THIS MOMENT, here, now, recognize that you are not crazy.
You. Are. Not. Crazy.

Know that the person who is unable to live in reality cannot and will not say the words that you are so longing to hear. But you can say them to yourself.

  • They will never do the right thing, yet I can move forward.
  • I know what I need to do to care for myself.
  • The chaos in their mind is not subject to change with reason or reality, or even from the intensity of my good heart.
  • I am not crazy. I am in a crazy system.
    I will leave it as soon as possible.
  • My honesty and compassion are valuable and powerful and, used in the right direction, will take me far.
  • I will take the energy that I am wasting in this pursuit and direct it someplace that will elevate my own life.


You have the strength to reclaim your life.

You have the beauty of self confidence.
Toxicity does not exist everywhere in the world.
You deserve every step towards good health that you can take.

Saturday, May 21, 2016

Therapy? Maybe.


We all have our own issues, you know. Some of us spend too much money in order to chase away the I'm not good enoughs. Some of us doubt our own abilities and lack self confidence. Some of us have unhappy voices in our heads reminding us of our past actions.

It's hard being a grown up; it's hard being a human being. We only know what we know and most of us inherit behaviors and thoughts from past generations.

I'm talking about this today because we, as a more enlightened generation of parents have it within our power to really change humanity. We who are the current bearers of confusion, pain, anxiety, and messed up thoughts have tools at our disposal that can help us dispose of some of this crap forever; we can make choices that will allow us to pass on healthier and happier messages to our children.


What AM I Talking About?

Some places where the human race has been muddled, shamed, impaired, and awkward include healthy sexuality, expression of feelings, learning to handle anxiety and depression, confronting pain and injury, believing in ourselves, confidently being on our own side, choosing healthy things and people in our lives, healthy conflict, healthy boundaries, intimacy, choosing relationships, etc. 

From sexuality to anxiety to anger issues, we now have access to internal and external modes of treatment and education to actively improve our ways of dealing with the frisson points between ourselves and the rest of the world. Nearly every adult has access to good interventions of our own issues and we need to gratefully and optimistically grab hold of those healthy interventions.

And why?
Partially so as to not pass those inherited or circumstantial issues on to our beloved offspring. Partially so that we can create our own life rather than live with the damaging crap that we inherited.

Are you game?